This one stumped me for a good long time.
I wouldn't change anything, I don't think. Because I have *everything.* I have a husband who loves me, a job that supports me, a career that I have confidence will take off eventually, my health (barring minor inconveniences), land, a wonderful pet, a house I can point to and say 'I built that!' and I've got *still* got a whole life in front of me.
But if I had to go back and change something... hmmm... I think I'd go back to the times when I was really young and change the fact that I could get away with things. I was an oddball child, youngest by 10 years, knew enough to intimidate most grownups, and no one ever caught me in my little white kid lies. I think it's made me subconsciously dishonest without recognition of consequences, and I really, really dislike that about myself. My first instinct is always a run-and-hide answer, and I've never really had to justify myself... until Jake. That makes a lot of conflict between us. I don't think about *why* I do things, I just fly by my seat, and I think I'd be a better person if I was more introspective and instinctively honest.
1) What's your secret?
If I told you, it wouldn't be a secret anymore, would it? :P
2) HOW in the WORLD do you manage to DO it, woman? XD
Well, I like to start with good music, and turning down the lights, and oh! You didn't mean do IT, you meant DO it... ;)
Jake thinks I have a condition. He says my guilt gland is hardwired on, and that if I'm not working, I'm not having fun. I may be a touch manic depressive, too, but I've found that the way to pull out of the depressive days is to work, because I get depressed when I haven't accomplished anything. I multitask a lot. I do nearly all my writing on the sly at the day job. I draw while I'm watching TV or sitting in class. I take story notes constantly. And frankly, I don't think I really accomplish an ungodly amount. I don't have kids to occupy my time, and I don't do a lot socially, and instead of watching TV, I usually draw. I draw and write rather quickly... which often shows in my work, I fear - I haven't done anything I would actually consider 'finished' ever... and my business is my single passion. I don't really have other hobbies. I think there's been a healthy does of luck in there somewhere, too. Those are my initial thoughts, anyway.
What is one dream, goal, or plan that you used to have and really want, that you now find you no longer want, or have given up, and why?
Theatre. I wanted to sing and dance and act and the whole nine yards. But I came to realize that most theatre people aren't the type I want to hang out with, and that whole broken back thing puts a crimp on lots of dancing as a career.
And for the record, my favorite pizza is artichoke hearts, Italian sausage, fresh tomatoes and green olives with a pesto sauce.
I'll still accept questions.
Questions, eh?
Date: 2003-04-03 11:59 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-04-04 03:10 am (UTC)