Enough of fear...

[ellenmillion]

I have been paralyzed.

The little pockets of my own success have terrified me. I am scared to death of making promises I cannot keep, or being overwhelmed by tasks I can't complete. I am petrified of depending on people and watching them drift away. I am sick to death of holding back on projects, dragging my feet on advertising and doubting my own ability.

I am better than this, I am stronger than this. I am above stupid high school feelings of 'being excluded' and needing outside validation of my own strengths. I have never regretted (too much) the times I have plowed forward and given it everything - I have always regretted not trying, and not trying hard enough. If my help falls through, I can get other help, or I can do it myself. I refuse to wait until things are easy to give it a shot.

Look out, world! Ellen's giving herself pep talks!

Comments

[yasha-chan.livejournal.com]

Go Ellen! You can do it! XD

[sunkitty77.livejournal.com]

Yay Ellen! Go you! You rock! There's some extra validation for you!
And you can still count me in for DC booth running so know at least that you can depend on that!! :))
While I'm on the subject, any word on DC specifics?? The day is drawing nearer.. :0)

[ellenmillion.livejournal.com]

Just that last letter in... mmm... April? that verified we paid and had a space. I'll let you know when more info comes in!

[sunkitty77.livejournal.com]

:0) Sounds GOOD!

[akeyla.livejournal.com]

go ellen :)
and right so, just because we believe in you doesnt mean you dont have to believe in yourself *scolding finger* *gg*
no serious, go the way that calls to you and your heart, if it is what you want and desire the opinion from outside does not matter :) you are good :)

[jenelycam.livejournal.com]

*HUGS ELLEN TIGHT*

[carmensylph.livejournal.com]

Amen sister! I *so* hear you right now!!!!

Go Ellen!

[wyrdpainter.livejournal.com]

Following your own dreams, completing your own projects, rather than following the pack opens up your creative potential. Only then can truly brilliant things happen for you. Pep talk away girl...you have been and always will be a phenomenon. If you'd waited for approval before starting EMG, licensing artists from all over the world, waited until it was a reasonable business opportunity, it never would have happened.

Allow your own inner force of nature to expand and your resources will become apparent, whether from within or without.