It's not always anymore.

[ellenmillion]

I drove home feeling sorry for myself.

It hurt to push the gas pedal, to turn my head, to buckle the belt - all those little things that are involved in driving from one place to another. White pain, hot and sharp-edged, flaring down my hips and up my spine, ebbing away and burning again if I dared to shift or relax in the slightest.

It's not fair, I thought to myself. It's not fair to hurt like this, to wince at bumps, to ache for something as basic as turning the steering wheel. It's been a long time since I hurt like this.

Then it hit me: it's been a LONG time since I hurt like this.

This used to be normal. This was every day. This was always.

It's not always anymore.

And I felt better.

Comments

[theresamather.livejournal.com]

feel better soon.

[astein142.livejournal.com]

I hope you feel better soon!

[wyld-dandelyon.livejournal.com]

It's so cool that (overall) things have gotten better for you!

[frigg.livejournal.com]

Ugh. I hope you feel better soon.

I guess there is a positive side to having health issues - that you appreciate it so much more when you're feeling normal, because you're so familiar with feeling like crap.

[jenelycam.livejournal.com]

I'm glad it's not always anymore sweetie. Sorry you're hurting now though. *gentle hugs*

[faebyl.livejournal.com]

still, I hope the pain goes away, far away soon!!

*hugs*
Mon:)

[pixiewildflower.livejournal.com]

That's a great realization!