"This is You" - my icon says to me.

[ellenmillion]

Hoover a cursor over my own icon, and it says helpfully 'This is you.'

Is it? Is it really?

Am I a bodiless hand proclaiming an addiction to dots? Am I the contents of my blog? Am I the person I sound like in forums? Am I as funny as I try to be?

I'm more than 30 now, but I've never really changed my view of myself from who I used to be. To me, I'm still 18: injured, awkward and awakening. I'm not someone with authority - and I find myself still unsure of what to do with it when I realize that I wield it.

Crud, no time to finish these thoughts now...

Comments

[starrydance.livejournal.com]

It says: Ellenmillion is your mutual friend. Thats not me!@

I feel a lot like that sometimes, is my internet self really myself? And I really any different from when I was when I was 12?

Sometimes my rooms still as dirty *looks around the house and snorts*.

[tamnonlinear.livejournal.com]

I think we all get to be different ages all the time. It's not that you're grown up, it's just that you have more options.

I am regularly five, especially in the morning, when I dun wanna get up. I am quite giddily thirteen when I see the Boy has sent me a message and I just about giggle because he like, likes me. I need to be adult a little more often, doing the practical work, but I have that And sometimes I am as old as the hills and I can see the seasons change and feel roots in the earth.

Also, did you mean to hoover over the icon or hover over it? Both are good images, really, but I thought I'd check.

[pseudopagan.livejournal.com]

As someone who was there when you were 18 (and before, yes?), I'd have to point out that you have always been someone that others look to for direction and authority. And found it.

Which is to say that while you may be unsure of what to do with authority now, but you've always managed to do well by those who you had real or perceived (by them) authority with.

I'm sure you've changed a lot over the years since then, but I have every faith you're only more able now than you were then, whatever you might be unsure of yourself.

[ursulav.livejournal.com]

The nastiest thing about getting a divorce was that I found myself trying to think back to who I was before my personality got so integrated in with this other person...and that took me back to (ulp!) being seventeen.

And honey, there's not enough money in the WORLD to make me re-live my adolescence. So I more or less ditched that idea.

I think we all get the image of ourselves set around that age, though. So I don't know. Maybe it's just something you learn to live with--that nobody ever really believes they've grown up.

[pers1stence.livejournal.com]

I think many of us have a self-view that is somewhat younger than our actual chronological age...It's hard to believe that I'm now, technically, old enough to run for President...How weird is that?

I have friends who are doctors, lawyers, surgeons, firefighters, police officers....People entrusted with important responsibilities and trusted with multi-million dollar products and budgets.

And then I think to myself? Really? They put him in charge of that? They put her in charge of that? We're not that grownup yet, are we?

[celticwren.livejournal.com]

I used to think, when I was 10 or so, that 18 was Grown-Up. :p I kind of shudder when I think of the love letters I wrote to my (now) husband, I was sooo sappy and silly back then! Gack!

Of course, I am probably still pretty silly. :p :)

I wish that I could see myself as someone else sees me, how exactly do I come across?

Gee, I hope I don't annoy the heck out of people... >_

[celticwren.livejournal.com]

"I kind of shudder when I think of the love letters I wrote to my (now) husband"

when I was 18...

[metasilk.livejournal.com]

You are an onion, actually. Or a tree. Someone with rings and things.