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[ellenmillion]

Nightmares last night.

I had forgotten when the fair started, it was already well into the first day when I remember - I hadn't set up my tent, or packed, or stocked, or anything, and was in a mad panic. I remember kneeling near some spilled icecream, begging my mother for help, saying, "Don't let me do this alone again." She seemed indifferent*.

I woke up weeping and drenched in sweat.

I'm so glad this is my last year at this.



*ETA: I'd like it noted that my parents have been supportive of my pursuits. Baffled, and I think they always wondered why I never grew out of the fantasy kids stuff, but if I had ever needed their help, I think I would have gotten it.

Comments

[mizkit.livejournal.com]

God, you poor thing. *hugs*!

[wildwose.livejournal.com]

Oh man, that is a vendors dream for sure. We go through dreams like that regularly. Vendor anxiety dreams are part of the trade. Especially doing RennFaires. They are like the blacksmith forge for vendors, hardening and tempering our psyches to prepare us for the rigors.

[thaldir.livejournal.com]

Argh, poor Ellen!

*Gives big, friendly bear hug*

[ursulav.livejournal.com]

Oh god, I've had those. Con anxiety dreams of doom...I recall one where zombies were attacking, and as I fell down, and looked up through their heads closing in, my dying thought was "Oh god, are we out of Bad Egg t-shirts!?"

[pixiewildflower.livejournal.com]

**HUGS**

[selinafenech.livejournal.com]

Oh gosh, I had a vendor anxiety dream just this morning!! Not only did I leave behind all the right things I needed (I was trying to construct a marquee tent out of a flat queensized bedsheet), but someone who doesn't like me slashed my face with a stanley knife because I put my tent too close to theirs... yikes! Two weeks to go till the event, I think I'll get started on this one early... hehe.

[pseudopagan.livejournal.com]

I remember thinking that about your parents, way back when, that they seemed like nice people who had very little idea what to make of us strange people and the things we were into.

[jenelycam.livejournal.com]

Sorry you're having nightmares... *HUGS*